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@ 7:04 PM

have done alot of self seeking lately.

having been told that depot's gona be atonomous soon, just dono how soon, just left me at a lost of words. i mean i knew such a day had to come... ... but so soon? yeah, 3 years since it started but even then.

talked to a few people. and the past year like say around 4 or 5 families have gone over. during camp heard about how leaders and help is needed there. yet at the same thing, amk's somehow decaying too. i mean like during singspiration, other than me, marvin, jef, lucas and a few others, nobody's singing at all. even the older ones, dont know what happened to them.

i mean like, i thot a few years back the youths here were buzzling and burning and so much alive. and then now...

i just realised that i have three years left in my teenage bank account. sec4, jc1, jc2, and then army. 3 years. jonathan boon shared with me why he was putting so much effort in youth work, why he is spending so much time in yp as a teenager.

"I don't want to grow up regretting not serving during my teenage years."

I have that same desire now. ever since last year youth camp, even the past bible camp, like i wanted to be used by God. some of my past bible study sessions, my other mates didnt really enjoy cos we were still young then and the teaching style wasn't effective. during last year's youth camp, as a dorm leader I learnt alot of how to lead in bible study sessions. discussions. practical lessons. prayer. sharing.

3 years.

my bank account hasn't been used much yet. the only service i'm offering so far is playing the piano. and I believe I can offer much more than that. already amk has so many youth leaders in my earlier batches. so depot? but things are always so complicated.

why, God?

I believe that before I talk about leading in church activities, I will have to take care of my school life as well. tomorrow's the first day of school. and when i step into the school compound tmw, i'll remember to say a prayer. Lord, help me, guide me for I am weak. I've been quite lazy in the past terms. time management is almost as if it's sleep management. i had no discipline.

but after camp. after the challenges to live as a christian. i'm gona change.

As Jesus said in the bible: we must prove ourselves to handle big things by handling small things first. and i'm gona handle my term 3 well. and to do that, I'll need the strength. and that strength, will come from doing my quiet time and praying everyday.

for the next few months, i'm gona pray for the youths at amk and depot. and where the Lord will lead me. pray with me. there's not much time left before the close of this year. it could be the last youth camp as bethesda hall amk+depot. i know it's sad, cos i feel the same as you. but it's all God's sovereignty.

3 years left on my bank. I want to use that 3 years for service as a youth. even though i'm just a teenager, I believe God can work wonders :)

Dear God, here's my two mites.

"You are the Potter,
I am the clay,
Mould me and make me,
this is what I pray"

imuzi.
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